03-20-2017, 10:57 PM
you're waiting for someone to put you together, you're waiting for someone to push you away
Her body pounded. Reverberation sounded in her ears when she heard him approach. How could she not? Her body was as attuned to his as it had ever been. But rolling around in her gut—the acid… the guilt—was the feeling that she should not be where she was, and before he even spoke… she took two steps back from Alek. Her ears rotated backwards and pinned to her skull. Her eyes closed in pain. She shook. And when she opened her eyes to look at Alek, she whispered her apologies, and pulled away from his face, using the power of Ruan’s magic, leveled her green gaze with his own… and the bile rose in the back of her throat, that sick feeling returning…. As tears stung the corners of her eyes. And she gasped back her tears.
Do not return to my home.
And like that, the ice melted, and the black wolf slunk back into the shadows, the wind blowing behind him as if he’d never been there at all.
And yet, the world that Reagan had known had come crashing down around her feet, and she lowered her face to the ground—vomiting the full contents of her stomach as she began sobbing again. Her chest heaved, the heat of embarrassment coloring her entire body a dull red, and she sobbed. Angry cries that dripped on the ground as she let loose her fear, her jealousy, her love.
She had loved Ruan; and he had let her down. Jealousy seethed in her belly, and anger. He had not had faith in her in quite some time. But the loss of a love that had had the potential to race among the stars had turned out instead to be as a comet; Bright and beautiful for a short time, before burning out and going up in a blaze of glory.
She had never expected to see the days with him end—indeed, if he had come to fetch her home, rather than remove her from her home… she would have gone with him. But she had had a feeling he did not love her anymore.
The coldness in his eyes had proved that.
She continues to cry, blindly groping about for the strong black pillar—her silent guardian. She bleeds herself into Alek’s broad chest, clinging to him for life, wanting….something.
Needing everything.
“Alek…I” she sobs, needing the strength of this dark shadow. “I am so sorry.”
Do not return to my home.
And like that, the ice melted, and the black wolf slunk back into the shadows, the wind blowing behind him as if he’d never been there at all.
And yet, the world that Reagan had known had come crashing down around her feet, and she lowered her face to the ground—vomiting the full contents of her stomach as she began sobbing again. Her chest heaved, the heat of embarrassment coloring her entire body a dull red, and she sobbed. Angry cries that dripped on the ground as she let loose her fear, her jealousy, her love.
She had loved Ruan; and he had let her down. Jealousy seethed in her belly, and anger. He had not had faith in her in quite some time. But the loss of a love that had had the potential to race among the stars had turned out instead to be as a comet; Bright and beautiful for a short time, before burning out and going up in a blaze of glory.
She had never expected to see the days with him end—indeed, if he had come to fetch her home, rather than remove her from her home… she would have gone with him. But she had had a feeling he did not love her anymore.
The coldness in his eyes had proved that.
She continues to cry, blindly groping about for the strong black pillar—her silent guardian. She bleeds herself into Alek’s broad chest, clinging to him for life, wanting….something.
Needing everything.
“Alek…I” she sobs, needing the strength of this dark shadow. “I am so sorry.”
reagan
