you ask me about love and I tell you about violence
COTY
Assailant -- Year 226
QOTY
"But the dream, the echo, slips from him as quickly as he had found it and as consciousness comes to him (a slap and not the gentle waves of oceanic tides), it dissolves entirely. His muscles relax as the cold claims him again, as the numbness sets in, and when his grey eyes open, there’s nothing but the faint after burn of a dream often trod and never remembered." --Brigade, written by Laura
[open] my heart is thrilled by the still of your hand
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03-10-2024, 11:39 PM
yes i know that love is like ghosts, few have seen it but everybody talks — He isn’t dead, but he draws her attention all the same. There is something strange about him, even if it is only the fact that he doesn’t appear strange at all. When she first sees him she almost looks away, tucked back in her small grove of trees that clustered in a corner of the meadow, somehow thinking her bejeweled body might stay hidden in the mottled shadows. She hadn't been looking for company today; the ghosts had kept her awake as they tended to do, and the edges of her mind felt foggy from lack of sleep. The thought of having to pretend everything was normal and okay with a stranger felt like an insurmountable task, even more than it usually did. But thesomething about him is undeniable, and it is so rare for her to feel a pull of any kind that she finds herself stepping into the winter sun, the cold light glinting off the faces of the stones and rubies scattered across her dark body as she steps closer to him. She cannot name what it is, this draw to him, but she knows that the only thing she has ever felt any kind of connection to is the dead. “Do you hear them, too?” she asks, her soft voice nearly breathless with hope at the idea of finding some kind of kindred spirit — someone else that might know what it’s like to hear the constant murmuring of spirits, to always be haunted. “The ghosts,” she clarifies, her tongue feeling clumsy in her mouth as the idea that maybe she is wrong finally hits her. Narya — spirits follow everywhere i go,
they sing all day and they haunt me in the night
03-20-2024, 07:45 PM
you ask me about love and I tell you about violence
04-14-2024, 10:29 PM
yes i know that love is like ghosts, few have seen it but everybody talks — She sees the confusion that passes over his face, and that only further fuels the humiliation that settles like a knot in the pit of her chest. She is convinced that he is going to find her strange, as so many did. Even though this place is flooded with magic, she knew that what she could do was peculiar, and not one of those things others considered ‘pretty’ or ‘powerful’; she could not bend starlight or encourage flowers to bloom at her touch, she could not conjure fire or heal wounds. All she could do is converse with the dead, and even to them she was largely useless. The thing that many of them wanted the most was to be alive again, and there was nothing she could do about that. “Oh,” is all she says at first at his answer, a small frown shadowing her face. It had not occurred to her that it was possible to actually become living again after you’ve been dead. She doesn’t even know that both of her parents had once been dead, and that it was only by some strange happening that the gates to the Afterlife had been left open, allowing them passage back. She did not see her father often, and her mother did not speak much of her past, and Narya had learned from a young age to not pry — Anonya was the type that always seemed to be barely treading the water of her sadness, and Narya did not want to be the reason she was pulled under. “How?” she finds herself asking, and though her voice maintains its usual softened tone and her face still reserved, there is a spark of curiosity that warms her dark eyes. “What I mean is, how are you alive now?” Narya — spirits follow everywhere i go, they sing all day and they haunt me in the night @cancer
04-22-2024, 05:27 PM
yes i know that love is like ghosts, few have seen it but everybody talks — If her face falls a little at his answer, she does her best to conceal it. Even if she had not acknowledged it outright there had been a small ember of hope at the thought that maybe he held the answer to her problem — or at least part of it. If she could send the ghosts in the right direction, give them the map that would take them from death back to life. Instead all she can do is ignore them, and the guilt of it all eats at her morning and night. But he is honest, at least, and she gives a small nod of her head in understanding. “I guess you were just lucky,” she says, even if she does not entirely believe it. She isn’t so sure that being alive is lucky, but her experience with spirits tells her death is not always lucky, either. The unknown that everyone so fears is well known to her, and still she is afraid of death. She is afraid that she will not be one of those that welcomes it, that she will be like the spirits that have haunted her most of her life — clawing for a way back out, desperate for anyone that can hear her, frantically whispering into deaf ears. “My name is Narya,” she tells him, trying to smile. She is not good at pretending to be happy, but she has learned that others find sadness unsettling, especially from a stranger. She tries to think of how best to answer his question without it coming across as though she is drowning in self-pity. “Nearly constantly. I can see them, too,” she begins, and though she keeps her tone light there is a shade of worry there, too. “If I could control it it wouldn’t be so bad, I think. There was only a brief period of time not long ago that I could. It felt like…it felt like magic.” It spills from her before she can stop it, the thing that she has never voiced out loud — how after she had done her part to help Baltia and Stratos she had felt so strong and controlled, and how it just as suddenly had been ripped away by a force she never saw the face of. “But I don’t think magic comes and goes like that, does it? I don’t know what it was. It’s gone now, whatever it was.” Narya — spirits follow everywhere i go, they sing all day and they haunt me in the night @cancer |
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