11-13-2021, 08:52 PM
liesma
“Did you think I wouldn’t see you?” she asks the stars, peering up through the canopy of trees that converge at the edge of the river.
“Did you think I wouldn’t know you were there?” she asks and calls them down to her, bathing herself in starlight.
Because she has learned how to control it, because she has practiced, because it is more than simply hoping that they might kneel down to kiss her. It is more than loving so fiercely that they have no choice but to crowd themselves around her. They yield to her will, just as they yield to her mother’s, her mother who has dreamed things into existence.
The stars she calls from the sky do not speak to her the way the star that hovers constantly over her left shoulder does. (She wonders, though, if they speak to each other. If the star that belongs to her knows that it belongs to the rest of them, too.)
Were she not such a serious girl, she might have laughed in delight as the stars wept into the river. She might have tipped back her head and caught them between her grinning lips, might have swallowed them down and let them simmer in her belly.
But she is a serious girl, because she is too much like her father, the lips have never bent around the soft folds of a smile. Instead, she merely stands among them and lets them gently kiss her flesh (they burn, they singe, but she does not curl away from them).
And this time, when she hears the approach of another, she does not return the stars to the sky. She does not blink them back into darkness. She only turns her head and peers into the darkness, waiting.
“Did you think I wouldn’t know you were there?” she asks and calls them down to her, bathing herself in starlight.
Because she has learned how to control it, because she has practiced, because it is more than simply hoping that they might kneel down to kiss her. It is more than loving so fiercely that they have no choice but to crowd themselves around her. They yield to her will, just as they yield to her mother’s, her mother who has dreamed things into existence.
The stars she calls from the sky do not speak to her the way the star that hovers constantly over her left shoulder does. (She wonders, though, if they speak to each other. If the star that belongs to her knows that it belongs to the rest of them, too.)
Were she not such a serious girl, she might have laughed in delight as the stars wept into the river. She might have tipped back her head and caught them between her grinning lips, might have swallowed them down and let them simmer in her belly.
But she is a serious girl, because she is too much like her father, the lips have never bent around the soft folds of a smile. Instead, she merely stands among them and lets them gently kiss her flesh (they burn, they singe, but she does not curl away from them).
And this time, when she hears the approach of another, she does not return the stars to the sky. She does not blink them back into darkness. She only turns her head and peers into the darkness, waiting.
i see you shining through the treetops
But i don’t feel you pulling strings anymore
But i don’t feel you pulling strings anymore