06-19-2017, 04:09 PM
tangerine
face to the sun
Tangerine runs. No, Tangerine tears across the borders of Hyaline and into the common lands east of Amet’s Kingdom. Despite the short distance she has traveled, the landscape around her is changing drastically as she moves east. The trees transition into heavy oaks and the air is cooler under their shade. The fog rolls in waves off the river, casting the lofty oak trees in a chilling twilight.
After the openness of her mountain summits the trees and the damp feel claustrophobic, heightening her feeling of anxiety.
“Warrick!” she calls loudly, her voice straining to project as far as possible in the fog. She held her breath and listened as his name echoes of the oak trees in a ghostly way. But Tang can’t hold her breath for long and she pants in the gloom, feeling defeated and confused.
When she had left him in Tephra she had thought they had an understanding. Her heart hurt to think she had injured him in some way. Molotov had revealed more of his thought than he intended, maybe he was embarrassed by his feeling for her and wanted to keep them hidden. She was naive, but not so naive that she could not imagine what had caused his disappointment in her. At first, she had been embarrassed but also encouraged my Molotov’s disclosure - but now she felt sickened when she thought back to the encounter.
“Until we meet again.” Those words stung her, the coldness she perceived in them, and the finality. She swallowed hard to rid her throat of the acidity building there. She wouldn’t lose Warrick.
But if he doesn’t want to be found, what then? If he is done with her, sees no more value in her friendship, then there is nothing she can do to change that. She wants to break down, curl up and cry. But she is stronger than that, she wants to make it better – she always wants to make it better. And the only way she can do that is if she finds him. So, she keeps moving, calling out his name. Her pale coat seems out of place in the greens and greys of the world around her, but she doesn't think of what could be lurking in these woods and pastures, she only thinks of finding her friend.
Should she have waited for Warrick? Was she wrong to have feelings for Amet?
When she had chosen Amet over Warrick she hadn’t even known she was choosing. Maybe the auburn stallion had come to tell her he had changed his mind, that he wanted to be with her, maybe he had intended to stay in Hyaline for a while… she would never know. The happiness he had shown at first seeing her broke her heart now.
She would keep running all the way to Tephra if she didn’t find him, she would sit in that cave and wait for weeks if she had to.
Tangerine had only ever wanted to help heal him, but not it seems she has done more damage than good.
Once again, she had proved to be the silly girl who asked for too much.
@[Warrick]