05-29-2017, 02:05 PM
Jinju
How long had it been? Jinju couldn’t exactly tell anymore, except for that it was too long. From one moment to another her mother had disappeared from her life. And it hurt. It had not happened just once, or twice. No. With Reagan’s disappearance she had lost her third mother. A mother she so desperately wanted and needed in her life.
Especially now. Her stomach showed the early curves of pregnancy already, though, not enough to have her stay at home. Jinju knew that her father preferred that, or at least that she took someone with her, but the fire child could look after herself. And the delicate matter that had carried her to the forest again was something she had to do alone.
Like she had promised Enfys she had never stopped looking for their mother. The black woman was still grateful that her mother had entrusted her with the care of her youngest sibling, but just like her, little Enfys missed her mother too. And stubborn as she was Jinju kept coming back to the forest. Never venturing too far or too deep, knowing that Reagan would’ve made her den close to home.
But even if she would find the den, the chance that she actually would lay her eyes upon the gray and emerald mare was small. Even if she longed for it so badly. Jinju knew that her mother wouldn’t show herself until she was ready. She could only hope that if Reagan would learn of her daughter’s pregnancy it would make her a little more willing to allow Jinju back into her life.
She no longer bothered to call, choosing to wander instead of disturbing the forest. She’s not completely silent, sometimes murmuring stuff for nobody to really hear. Reagan would know she was there, know she was looking for her, and Jinju hoped that it warmed her mother’s heart. ”You’re going to be a grandma, mom..” she whispers.
Especially now. Her stomach showed the early curves of pregnancy already, though, not enough to have her stay at home. Jinju knew that her father preferred that, or at least that she took someone with her, but the fire child could look after herself. And the delicate matter that had carried her to the forest again was something she had to do alone.
Like she had promised Enfys she had never stopped looking for their mother. The black woman was still grateful that her mother had entrusted her with the care of her youngest sibling, but just like her, little Enfys missed her mother too. And stubborn as she was Jinju kept coming back to the forest. Never venturing too far or too deep, knowing that Reagan would’ve made her den close to home.
But even if she would find the den, the chance that she actually would lay her eyes upon the gray and emerald mare was small. Even if she longed for it so badly. Jinju knew that her mother wouldn’t show herself until she was ready. She could only hope that if Reagan would learn of her daughter’s pregnancy it would make her a little more willing to allow Jinju back into her life.
She no longer bothered to call, choosing to wander instead of disturbing the forest. She’s not completely silent, sometimes murmuring stuff for nobody to really hear. Reagan would know she was there, know she was looking for her, and Jinju hoped that it warmed her mother’s heart. ”You’re going to be a grandma, mom..” she whispers.