08-02-2019, 11:26 PM
 I can remember a time when I was so afraid when even my shadow wouldn't follow me There was nothing that made Elaina great, or wonderful, or even unique aside from her wild past. She was a mass of tortured beauty- broken and beaten she had lived a life of solitude and loneliness, the constant heart ache, the battered dreams, the beautiful friends and family. But she was trying. But the betrayal, the hurt and the loss all factored into the creature that was here in Beqanna. Elaina briefly wonders what happened to Altair, and if Lilli was safe. She wondered if Aerwir was still in Woodlands or if he had moved on, she wondered what happened to Soren and if he missed Beylani still as much as she did. Elaina yearned for the comfort of her family and her friends, yet she knew she must push that yearning, that love- behind her. She had no time for it anymore, it only seemed to cause more pain and eventually she would not be able to take it any more. So maybe this was it, with Kensa. Starting fresh, wiping her memory of all that pained her. She would pick herself up and rebuild her world, no matter the limits. The blonde has decided to travel to other lands. She needed something to keep her busy, to keep her mind from wandering to the little blue eyed red head and how they were living in different lands, unable to so easily change. Elaina knows that, if she approached Kensa, that the mare, Elaina’s leader would grant the blonde palomino passage into Wolfbane’s land without a second thought. But, the thought of doing this, sends ELaina’s stomach into a pit as she realizes, while she loves Lilli and always wants her cousin close, she didn't think she could part away from Kensa and her new home in Hyaline. Not when she had just gotten settled and not when she was trying her hand at becoming a diplomat. She shakes that snowy mane, the feel of the spring sunshine is a welcomed relief against the winter backdrop for the summer child. Every winter Elaina suffered through the biting wind, and the freezing temperatures, but every spring she found herself with something like renewed hope. And now, with the backing of a home behind her, Elaina feels like something entirely new as she moves through Beqanna with countered steps. There is something familiar to her now as she walks, something overall comforting almost. Her direction is the field. Although a new resident to Hyaline herself, it may seem silly to be traveling with the intention of recruiting new members, but, she thinks, maybe she could make it more relatable. Elaina could offer them the validity of their emotions, and let them know that it would get better and perhaps, offer Hyaline as a place to gain their barring and a family of some sort. She is content in the loneliness the forest provides, in the silence the trees off her. She is a quiet thing as she moves, as tough as stone, but not entirely resistant to anyone deliberately trying to chip away at her. She is scarred, she has endured her parents death, being hunted down like property, and being ripped from her home, multiple homes. Yet, there is a piece of her that remains steadfast in her faith that there is good in this world, and that good is all around her, inside her, inside everyone. She is not heartless; she misses her friends, feels sad when she remembers those she has left behind (Alvaro, Soren, Altair, Starett, Hoshi). She only wishes them to be happy. She has been hurt, and she has found it in her heart to forgive them. She is remarkable in her solidarity, strange in the way she seems so unoriginal. The late morning sun bakes the meadow a healthy green-gold and she smiles at the grasshoppers clicking as they sail through the air. Aside from the drone of everyday life, the birds and the grasshoppers, the forest is quiet. She is the lone stranger in a sea of old friends, fine with being near them but also fine without. She is here to converse; everyone is here to converse. Perhaps contradictory to her lone wolf attitude, Elaina finds pushing past that antisocial nature effortless and turns to a stranger, not the first she sees but the first she wants to talk to and smiles such a beautiful smile at him it breaks her heart to know her parents are not here to see it. Those amber eyes, like a wild firestorm, are like dull jewels set in the golden sunshine of her face. She is happy, and she doesn't know why, but she has already decided that he is her friend. Childlike in her happiness and lull of adventure, Elaina simply says “Oh, hello,” as if it answers all the questions in the world. benjamin and beylani's sunflower-girl |
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