There is my mind, there is my heart.
The smile works contagious, and although Kylin’s is not as brilliant, bright and beautiful as Karaugh’s, it is a start. Just a twitch of her lavender lips growing to a small smile. One not less genuine, but careful and hesitant. Almost as if she is afraid to feel again. Afraid to fall down again.
But, would there be someone to catch her this time? ”I promise.” Someone like Kagerus? Kylin shudders, her hazel eyes closing for a second. The motion makes her shed some of the tears that had wet her eyes. Kagerus’ nose against her own makes Kylin open them again. They are still wet and shiny, but, for the very first time in a long while, there is hope to be seen in them again. The light touch makes her press closer, wanting, no needing more. Afraid that she would lose her grounding if the contact between them would be broken.
Hearing about Hyaline’s lake make her eyes twinkle ever so slightly, a spark of interest and curiosity, and a longing for easier times. The prospect of the cold makes her shiver, and glance down. In Ischia it was never cold, her thin coat very much proof of that. And her thinned form wouldn’t help to get her warm either.
The disappointment she feels surprises her. Just as the excited flutter in her stomach at Kagerus’ suggestion to go back with the piebald mare. But, that meant leaving Ischia. Could Kylin leave Ischia? The island had been her home almost all her life. ”I..” she murmurs, not sure what she wants to say. Her eyes find Kagerus’, then she bends her neck to glance back at Ischia jungle. ”C-could I?”
Would Hyaline want her? Would Ischia allow her to leave? Those are the thoughts that suddenly get so loud that she wonders if her head is about to explode. Fear and excitement, grief and longing, loyalty to her home or to herself.
By the time Kylin looks back at the other mare the tears are back in her eyes. She’s shaking, unable to deal with the sudden wave of feelings that hit her. Her gaze is desperately pleading Kagerus to help her. To make a decision for her, and guide her. Never before had Kylin stand on her own, and she does not know how to handle it. Not at all.
And hadn’t Kagerus said she’d been there for her?
@[Kagerus] <3 <3 <3