my dear sweet nothing, let's start anew; ashley

[leliana]

I waited for something and something died
so I waited for nothing and nothing arrived

She frowned a little, although it wasn’t unkind as much as it was perplexed, her brows drawing together in thought. The mention of Ischia stabbed at her, causing her heart to curl in her chest unpleasantly, but she could not say that she had heard his name before. It made her uncomfortable, since he obviously had expected her to know his name, and she shifted a little, her face turning apologetic as she considered him.

“It is a pleasure to meet you, Ashley,” she paused, biting her lip for a moment. “I can’t say that I would have known the name though. I am so sorry.” How could she? There was so much Dovev had kept from her, so many pieces of his life that he had kept carefully separate. How she had longed for him to open up to her, to share those pieces of him. How she had longed for him to open up and divulge those secrets.

But he had not.

She only knew the fragments, the bombshells he had not wanted to find their way to her.

“I believe Magnus may have mentioned your name before,” she searched, knowing that the name had been familiar, although maybe not in the way that he had expected. “And I did travel to Ischia once,” it was like a dagger to remember, the beautiful island and the bladed stallion. It was a memory that she had cherished and one that was like poison on her tongue. Something she loved that would eventually kill her.

Distressed, she ruffled her ginger wings at her side and then dipped her head a little. “I am really not very familiar with current events though.” She was too involved in her own life, in her own family, to know the leaders of the different lands outside of Tephra. She had too many hurricanes destroying her own life, and suddenly she was acutely aware of how selfish that had made her, how self-absorbed she must seem.

it's our dearest ally, it's our closest friend
it's our darkest blackout, it's our final end