Whoops. Yeah, I figured I went a little too deep there, thinking I knew what I was talking about, thinking it was my place to give advice. So when he deflects my comment about him being a decent guy with a smirk and a bit of a disbelieving look on his face, I snort. My bad. Next time I’ll be sure to specify I mean aside from his obvious faults. Which are none, but I can make ‘em up all he likes. I know what it’s like to feel like you’re shit, after all. Compliments aren’t always easy to swallow when you don’t believe there’s much of anything good in you.
But that little deflection is short-lived, and he greets me with a weird sort of...respect. A bow, a bit of a smile, but there’s nothing mocking in it. Believe me, I give him a good looking-over to make sure, wariness all over my face as I wait for a punchline that never comes. Huh. Well then. I tilt my head, my brow furrowed in mild puzzlement as I try to figure out how to respond to that. And then I shrug and nod. “Well. Not so bad to meet you either, Kade. I don’t know much about honor, but I’ll take your word for it.”
Ohhh but his next question has my whole face softening in an expression I don’t think I’ve ever worn before. My young family. Family. Not just me and my Rhory, but a whole new little person we teamed up to make, one tucked away deep inside me and just starting to grow. I duck my head, my eyes closing for a moment so I can just let that happy little glow wash over me and settle in my belly, wrapping our little one up in a hell of a lot of love.
Aaaand then I peek up at Kade, a little embarrassed at the depth of sappiness triggered by one little question. “Well at the moment, most of my young family’s right here,” I answer him, trying and failing to wipe the damn mushy smile off my face. “Two thirds, I damn well hope. I don’t want to think too hard about the possibility of having twins again.” Oh look, that thought’s enough to make my eyes go wide and my heart race a little. Shit. No healing magic this time. Ohhhh shit, I did not think of that. Mother fuck. Whoops. Okay, Arrya, just breathe. It’s gonna be fine.
I snort and shake off what could easily turn into me quietly freaking out about something that’s months away, and refocus on Kade and our conversation. “No idea where my daughters are, but I dragged Rhory to this really damn pretty forest to settle in and make ourselves at home. Sylva. Do you know it?” Maybe that’s a dumb question. Fucking everywhere’s new. I roll my eyes at myself and snort. “Sorry. Right. Woodsy bit just north of the godforsaken Mountain. Quiet, chill, nice scenery. Seems like a good place for a kid to grow up, hell of a lot better than the Meadow was, anyhow.” And then I tilt my head, curious. “What about you? Where do you call home, Kade?”
But that little deflection is short-lived, and he greets me with a weird sort of...respect. A bow, a bit of a smile, but there’s nothing mocking in it. Believe me, I give him a good looking-over to make sure, wariness all over my face as I wait for a punchline that never comes. Huh. Well then. I tilt my head, my brow furrowed in mild puzzlement as I try to figure out how to respond to that. And then I shrug and nod. “Well. Not so bad to meet you either, Kade. I don’t know much about honor, but I’ll take your word for it.”
Ohhh but his next question has my whole face softening in an expression I don’t think I’ve ever worn before. My young family. Family. Not just me and my Rhory, but a whole new little person we teamed up to make, one tucked away deep inside me and just starting to grow. I duck my head, my eyes closing for a moment so I can just let that happy little glow wash over me and settle in my belly, wrapping our little one up in a hell of a lot of love.
Aaaand then I peek up at Kade, a little embarrassed at the depth of sappiness triggered by one little question. “Well at the moment, most of my young family’s right here,” I answer him, trying and failing to wipe the damn mushy smile off my face. “Two thirds, I damn well hope. I don’t want to think too hard about the possibility of having twins again.” Oh look, that thought’s enough to make my eyes go wide and my heart race a little. Shit. No healing magic this time. Ohhhh shit, I did not think of that. Mother fuck. Whoops. Okay, Arrya, just breathe. It’s gonna be fine.
I snort and shake off what could easily turn into me quietly freaking out about something that’s months away, and refocus on Kade and our conversation. “No idea where my daughters are, but I dragged Rhory to this really damn pretty forest to settle in and make ourselves at home. Sylva. Do you know it?” Maybe that’s a dumb question. Fucking everywhere’s new. I roll my eyes at myself and snort. “Sorry. Right. Woodsy bit just north of the godforsaken Mountain. Quiet, chill, nice scenery. Seems like a good place for a kid to grow up, hell of a lot better than the Meadow was, anyhow.” And then I tilt my head, curious. “What about you? Where do you call home, Kade?”