04-12-2016, 09:36 PM
learn to read between the lines, yeah?
I can't help but stifle the smallest of laughs. This mare is funny, she seems so irritable but really she is a lot of bark... I see not bite in her at all. I see her eyes flash with annoyance, curiosity, and deeper thought. The odd mare who danced in circles around the fire tree during the war was not as odd as I first thought. By no means was she a maternal figure, she was prickly and blunt but she wasn't crazy. The day was slowly turned to night and I had grown tired as well, but not physically, but mentally.
I took in Shaytan's advice, I didn't say anything I only nod. The idea made sense, but I resonated with it for a different reason than what she probably meant. I didn't want to leave Chamber, it was my home, my brother and mother were here and it was all I ever had known. Chamber was home, but I didn't know if it was right for me. Maybe I had to actually do what I thought about as I ran from the clearing. Maybe I truly had to do what part of me didn't want to and part of me did. Maybe I had to leave.
My thought is interrupted by the mare's reply to my question. Shaytan explained why she stayed and that she wanted to return. I knew in that moment. I knew I would not return to the tree. I was scared out of my mind and I am sure I looked more jittery than I would have liked to believe. But I would not go back, it was time to go not just run to the corner of Chamber. I needed to find my own Straia, or tree, or reason to stay somewhere. Kimber and Vaughan were not so strong a reason anymore... though I think Vaughan will always be with me, in some way.... I don't think I should stay, even though part of me said otherwise.
"No." I shook my head. and take a step back. I look the spotted mare as squarely in the eyes as I could. "I'm not gong back. I can't, I'm doing to take your advice... do what you don't want to do. I don't want to leave Chamber- its been all I've known, but I need to find my reason so stay... the place that makes me know I'm home." I couldn't help but get a little choked up. it was a bittersweet moment. There are no other words, nothing else that made any sense to say. So I froze, half expecting her to leap and drag me back, but nothing happened (or alt least nothing happened yet). I smiled as i shifted back further before I turned and moved off. Unless she physically pulled me back, I would stay any longer. I had to go now, without Vaughan, without mother... if I went back I would stay, I would have lost my nerve. So I didn't look back, in fact I moved faster the further I got until I thundered through the last bit of land that was still Chamber. It wasn't until I was on the path between lands that I slowed. It was dusk and I would have to stop soon, but I couldn't help but smile. I was nervous yes, but I was excited. excited to find where I would truly find a home at.
vessel
nymphetamine x kimber
ooc: sorry about tense shifting... I know it's in there a bit but its late and I need to shower. and get to bed. We can let this be it of you can reply one last time... up to you
also sorry I totally forgot about out adorable vessel seeking maternal shaytan thread! 