♦ Fynnegan ♦
I can't say I know why I stay and talk with this girl. She may want to me more, but she has much to learn, I feel. I see her morph, switching from mask to mask her persona as fluent as a toddler's. Fickle is not what I mean, nor do I mean the young lass is fake... no, none of those words are fitting. It is like when a child wants to be grown up to they play dress up and try on different personas, they explore themselves. Ah yes, that is what I mean. Like she wants to me more- be a better version of herself, but isn't sure how. I watch her, wishing I understood more, understood the why? I find I wonder about others a lot, there is much to learn from other creatures.
I may be salty still, she was crass in her words and has yet to show any sign of being real with me. I find thick layers of propriety and manors to dull a conversation to a screeching halt. So I find it hard to not quip back as she asks me not to be disgraceful. I stop and think though... what is more disrespectful, bowing in jest, of assuming the role when you are not titled to it? I don't dwell long, as I need to reply "I disgraced you little considering how you disgraced me, whether or not an audience you sought. I approached out of sincere concern, and was met with harsh tones and verbal lashings. And I disgrace royals even less, a true leader understands humor and how old traditions do not the ruler make. Anyway, 'Fynnegan the Mighty' is a nickname of sorts given to me by a friend of mine. " I make sure my tones are kind, and explanatory. I don't pretend to know it all, but I know when a wrong has occurred and when it hasn't been righted. Esileif is intriguing, but I wont over look her rudeness- no matter how accidental.
I listen to her explain why she was in a tizzy, I hear the depths of her story through her shallow words, she was reluctant to say more. Considering our rocky start I try to be the figuratively bigger person. I nod in understanding, making my face soft, and eyes kind and understanding.Sometimes life doesn't show us the paths we feel it should, but I find the unexpected paths can be just as interesting, no?"
I didn't want to dig into her past, she seems so delicate about it, which I see in her defensiveness. I think that a future based conversation might do her good. "So, life threw you a curve, so what shall you do next? I am on my way to the dale, to see about joining them, I do hope I like it, but I won't know unless I try. So what do you want to try now?"
I smile at her a little, pushing away the anger and allowing myself to move on and away from the pitted start of their acquaintance.
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