all these voices in my head get loud
i wish that i could shut them out
i'm sorry that i let you down
The stranger was gone, flown back into the sky and leaving Anath down on the lake. She thinks about the things he said more often than she should. The filly wonders if they were true things or if the estimation of her value as given by most of the residents of Hyaline is factual. There is so much to confuse her here, and the black pegasus has only added to it. Sometimes, when she can safely daydream, Anath imagines him coming back here and taking her away to an even better place than Hyaline. Each childish fantasy ends about there, as she cannot or does not dare to imagine what waits beyond these mountains.
Anath cannot make the sunlight coalesce upon the lake anymore. Winter has frozen the lake. She lingers on the edge of it, where the water would have been shallow. Small hooves slip and shift as she tries to square her stance on the solid surface of the lake. Earlier some of the young shifters had played upon it, but Anath was left behind unable to move across the ice as quickly as they could in other forms. She does not mind. The filly almost always plays with them because she has to, not because she wants to. Mostly the others are nice, but not always. Children are usually kinder than adults but as they age so do their opinions. Anath is increasingly aware of how inferior she is to those that can change their shape. Her time here is dwindling as is her hope of proving herself worthy.
It’s a dull day, overcast. Her powers are weak. Anath’s gold and black body stands out against snow and ice. The muscles beneath the girl’s thick winter hide quiver and jump as she tries to stand on the ice without....Slipping. Losing her footing completely, Anath goes down hard onto the solid ice, one hind leg beneath her, a foreleg tucked into her chest and the other two splayed awkwardly on the ice. Green gold eyes, wide with surprise take stock of her predicament, and then flash up, mortified, to see just who might have seen it happen.
@bolder