Not since autumn has Mazikeen’s body been free of the markings that illuminate it. The pattern and quantity of them changes on occasion but the fire-bright glow is a constant in the corner of her eye, cracking over her entire body. It’s been worse since the snowstorm and there’s little doubt why. She has little doubt Gale will not have truly died - and there’s some satisfaction in imaging a splattered body try to stitch itself back together - but he is no longer a concern she will spend time on and her focus is elsewhere. She had unleashed what Firion had planted inside of her mind and it will not close back up again no matter how hard she tries. It lingers and she cannot get away from it or from the memories that it continuously tortures her with or the way it highlights every broken and empty place inside of her. She did not want Gale's shadows anymore but at least she had been ignorant, at least that had been easy.
Not a single scrap of what the golden magician had left behind is negative and her confusion feeds into her anger and the cycle repeats constantly, keeping her on-edge.
It is something she should ignore - but there is little by way of distraction for her now. Her pregnancy slows her down only a little and she falls back into old habits of scouting the borders even though they have entities to keep them safe. She only stops when she is exhausted and even then, in sleep, she finds all those happy memories again and they are all washed with golden light.
Like a scab, Mazikeen also cannot quite leave it alone so on a clear winter morning she goes hunting for the mother of the pair of stallions that needle her like no one else. Hunting even though she’s not looking for blood today. She knows better than to rage into the section of Hyaline she’s trained herself to ignore - even as she is now. It’s been ingrained into her mind to leave them alone and she’s never had a reason to divert from that. At first, it had been out of respect, then a mixture of appreciation and affection, and then she simply did not care.
She is herself today, a white mare crowned with twisting horns bright with cracks that match those on her body.
As soon as she sees Ryatah, a new flush of that hollow anger flushes through her. The memories she had shoved down Gale’s throat are too fresh - she looks at the gold-accented mare in the snow and sees Firion when he'd laughed and Selaphiel when he had first tentatively said her nickname. So her greeting to their mother is not so much spoken as it is snarled while she tries to wrestle these things she does not care about back to the corners of her mind. “Hello Ryatah.” But despite her tone, her red-orange eyes remain empty of their usual fire and she jumps to the point without preamble. “I've been wondering - can you heal the mind as well as the body?”
Can she fix what her son had done?
for Ryatah <3