05-15-2021, 06:58 PM
She watches him because it’s easier than looking away and letting her thoughts in. She watches as Tarian shakes out his wings and then when he moves off her eyes track him for a few heartbeats before she follows. There is no attempt to catch up and walk beside him but she is close, eager for their destination and to feel warmth cut through the chill in the air.
There had been warmth, when they had stood next to each other, but she’s pointedly not thinking about that.
Altissima frowns at the harsh tone that interrupts her confusing thoughts, and there’s a retort ready on her tongue depending on what comes next - but then he’s asking about her past and his voice seems warmer. She’s quiet for a moment, hovering between truth and lies as she follows him across the sand, before finally settling on truth. Maybe it’ll help fortify the walls she’s attempting to rebuild to say it, maybe he’ll even pity her and she can be annoyed with him again. Better than… than whatever that had been when she thought he was going to touch her.
Better than the realization she had been a little disappointed when he didn’t even though she knew it was for the best.
The truth Altissima shares is not one she thinks she cares about and so her voice is indifferent when she tells it. “My parents left me there, so I left before they could return.” She doesn’t expand on that, doesn’t tell him that it just seemed easier to stay on her own because that, at least, sounds a little too pathetic to say out loud. Or how there was the very real possibility that her parents never came back for her at all. She doesn’t point out that she’s not someone that interacts with others well, as highlighted by most of their history, so there hadn’t seemed to be much point in staying in a home where she might be expected to try.
She doesn’t tell him that being on her own felt like she had the choice to do whatever she wanted, even when that got lonely.
She doesn’t say any of these things, and just continues in that same (carefully) indifferent tone as she takes advantage of her spot behind him to watch the way his glow flickers as the moon appears and disappears behind the clouds.
“Nowhere suits me.”
There had been warmth, when they had stood next to each other, but she’s pointedly not thinking about that.
Altissima frowns at the harsh tone that interrupts her confusing thoughts, and there’s a retort ready on her tongue depending on what comes next - but then he’s asking about her past and his voice seems warmer. She’s quiet for a moment, hovering between truth and lies as she follows him across the sand, before finally settling on truth. Maybe it’ll help fortify the walls she’s attempting to rebuild to say it, maybe he’ll even pity her and she can be annoyed with him again. Better than… than whatever that had been when she thought he was going to touch her.
Better than the realization she had been a little disappointed when he didn’t even though she knew it was for the best.
The truth Altissima shares is not one she thinks she cares about and so her voice is indifferent when she tells it. “My parents left me there, so I left before they could return.” She doesn’t expand on that, doesn’t tell him that it just seemed easier to stay on her own because that, at least, sounds a little too pathetic to say out loud. Or how there was the very real possibility that her parents never came back for her at all. She doesn’t point out that she’s not someone that interacts with others well, as highlighted by most of their history, so there hadn’t seemed to be much point in staying in a home where she might be expected to try.
She doesn’t tell him that being on her own felt like she had the choice to do whatever she wanted, even when that got lonely.
She doesn’t say any of these things, and just continues in that same (carefully) indifferent tone as she takes advantage of her spot behind him to watch the way his glow flickers as the moon appears and disappears behind the clouds.
“Nowhere suits me.”
altissima
@[Tarian]
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