"But the dream, the echo, slips from him as quickly as he had found it and as consciousness comes to him (a slap and not the gentle waves of oceanic tides), it dissolves entirely. His muscles relax as the cold claims him again, as the numbness sets in, and when his grey eyes open, there’s nothing but the faint after burn of a dream often trod and never remembered." --Brigade, written by Laura
His composure seemed rigid - his forelimbs were strong, muscular and set sternly onto the fertile soil of the field. The swaying stalks of golden wheat lapped gently at his skin, tickling him, though he remained still and stoic. His spine, though naturally curved, was particularly still, locking him in place as he studied the land with disdain - the only flutter of movement came from his tangled tendrils of obsidian, which moved with the breeze against the nape of his neck. A trickle of sweat trailed down along his scarred cheek, marring his dark coat with its dampness - though it was not unusually warm out, a deeply set anxiety began to rise to the surface.
The memories flooded back with a fierce force that left him almost breathless. He had not stepped foot onto the land in many years, and the pain that remained interlaced in each familiar (and altogether unfamiliar - what had happened to these lands?) rock and low-hanging branch caused a stirring ache deep within his chest-battering heart. Having lived nearly twelve decades, he had seen many things, most of which made him ache for death - but its embrace was always so far out of reach. The unattainable. The impossible.
Instead, he was forced to live with his many regrets. He was forced to live, and breathe, while those he had once loved no longer did. His existence seemed futile in the grand scheme of things, and a trench of self-loathing had been dug deep into his soul. He could not bear to relive such vivid, excruciating memories, and instead pushed himself to simply exist. Nothing more, nothing less. The yearning and suffering could not envelope him if he kept himself preoccupied. Breathe. Sleep. Breathe. Eating did little for him - even starvation could not strip away his immortality, and he had tried more times than he could count.
He had loved, he had lost. And he had little to show for it.
His lids closed slowly over his crimson eyes as he lowered his head, the same dreadlocks of hair brushed across his marked and marred cheek. The various scars littered his skin, leaving him defaced. Disfigured. Blemished and imperfect. He could feel the warm breeze sliding across his skin as the sunlight bored into him, warming him in a way he hadn't felt in some time. It could not, however, touch the icy glaze over his heart. Nonetheless, he basked, urging his dark thoughts away, lost and focused on nothing but the warm rays of heat and the soft caress of nature's hand.
02-06-2016, 02:13 AM (This post was last modified: 02-06-2016, 02:19 AM by Girr.)
I don't suffer from insanity...
I hadn't been back in the Deserts long before an urge to go out and explore hit again. George was all for this idea, he liked exploring too, he told me so! Clutching him firmly between my teeth, but not too firmly so I didn't hurt him, I set out to find the pretty meadow I'd played in before.
My short little legs, with all their heavy feathering, moved surprisingly fast beneath my stocky frame. Crystalline blue eyes peer out from beneath the tangled mass of curls that was my forelock, my tail spreading out behind me like a frothy white wave as I moved along to the beat of some internal song. Or maybe I was just moving along to the bobbing of George in my teeth, who knew? I had reached the outskirts of the meadow by this time, and to my delight it was just as I had remembered! A disapproving sound echoed in my head and internally I sighed, here we go again. Spoil sport to the un-rescue!
Just WHAT do you think you're doing?!?! We just got back home you ninny! It's important for us to meet the new king or queen, so we can see if that still IS our home. Turn around and go back this instant!
I shook my head to clear it, almost dropping George in the process. Since I wasn't watching where I was going, I ran smack into something, hard enough it knocked me on my butt. Glancing up to see what I had run into, I felt the blood rush to my face in embarrassment, while I'd been fighting with the voice in my head, I'd ran into a guy who had been standing there minding his own business. George dropped from my lips into the grass as I continued to look up and up and up into the guy's face. I fumbled for words, but finally managed to make some as I scrambled to my feet.
Hi! I'm Girr! And this,I indicate the stick at my feet with a gentle nudge of my nose,is George. I'm really sorry for running into you! Who're you?.
I awaited a reply while I continued to look up at him, my lips stretched into a friendly smile. I like almost everyone, there aren't many people I truly dislike. Well except that stuck up thing in my head, but I think I'm the only one who can hear her...maybe.
Girr Mare Gypsy Vanner 6 15 hands Maximally expressed Cremello Sabino (ee/aa/CrCr/nZ/SbSb) Invaderless/The Deserts/No Clones Sael Voice in her head is in italics
The abrupt, violent shake of the impact did little to move the otherwise still, monolithic beast that stood looming over the meadow - a soft "oomph" was all that escaped him as each organ and bone rattled within him. A low throb began to pulse in his shoulder beneath the sinewy tendons as his eyelids shot open, deep crimson pools searching for the source of the collision. It is then that he inhales deeply, pockets of pollen tickling his snout, a deep grunt rumbling within his broad chest.
He studies her, obviously with disdain, taking in the sight of her pale flesh and obscenely bright eyes of blue. Her apology is seen first and heard second, the faintly red tinge to her cheeks spoke of it before she could find the words. He exhaled slowly, moving to step away from her, interrupted from his motion by her obscure yet odd mention and nod towards her .. unorthodox companion.
Again, he stares.
"George? I only see you." He finally croaked, his voice cracking and grinding out from his strained, altogether seldom used larynx. He stepped from one foreleg to the other, shifting his mass to each limb as he grew increasingly uncomfortable by her presence and closeness. He was not one for sociability. "Offspring." He uttered beneath his breath, knowing how strange and absolutely disgraceful his name was. Having been orphaned young, he could not know the true purpose of his calling, aside from the thought that his mother simply hadn't thought enough of him to name him properly.