Standing in the shade (statuesque with a hind hoof cocked, neck held level with his spine and mismatched eyes- one brown and the other green- staring off into space), the stallion is meditative, his mind tangled deep in many thoughts. It's almost uncharacteristic for him, one so usually wild and energetic, to be so still. The only movements to be seen are the deep inhales and exhales of his calm breathing, chest swelling and deflating. The time had come in the Brotherhood. The mad King overthrown and the Black magician taking his place, with all the Brothers behind him. Simeon was to be among them, one of them, and Errant- his uncle, Scorch's brother- was supposed to show him how to hold a crown. He was going to be trained and taught, because come on, Scorch isn't the best teacher. He loves her, and is so proud of her accomplishments and aspirations as the Queen of the Jungle. He has even agreed to do all of this in her name, supposedly securing an alliance between Sister and Brotherhoods. But could he do it?
He absolutely wants to make her proud, he wants to do anything for her to help further her cause. The last thing he wants to do is disappoint her. Fail her. When he had agreed, it had been extremely on impulse, hasty if he was to be honest. He had barely made it home for a visit after much of his young life spent wandering. He had decided to devote himself to the Jungle, had sworn his allegiance for once in his entire life not just to himself, not just to his mother, but the living breathing powerhouse that was the Amazonian Jungle. She had given him the vibrant tattoo (the green vine starting midway up his right foreleg, spiraling up into the bright orange-centered red hemerocallis on his breast and surrounded by flames that reached to each of his shoulders). It was time to become a man, one with an actual purpose, and Sim had been more than excited to do so when Scorch had approached him with her proposal to rule alongside Errant in the Tundra. But then he'd had time to think. To mull it all over. And his trek to the meeting among the brothers had been his coming clean about the plan- setting an honest front. He had stood before them all and acknowledged that he wasn't ready for such a position, and did not want anything to be simply given to him when it should be earned. The brothers had agreed to let him stay, to work his way up from the bottom, as was how it should be. Errant said he would train the young man.
But could he do it?
Every day, Simeon felt the pull deep inside of him to return to the jungle, return to his family (one that was growing every season, though he doesn't know that yet, gah Scorch). His father had returned home to them only just before Sim's initiation, which had been a major part of his decision to swear the oath. And so soon, he'd been sent to live in the Ice and snow. As aforementioned, the passionate stallion is never one to complain. He'd been anxious to step up for once and do this thing for her, in hopes of making her proud and yes, a little to feel important. How foolish, he thinks to himself. But how selfish and cowardly would he appear if he went to Errant and reneged? Certainly all the brothers would view him weak if he did what he was thinking of doing. A fact that simply would not do as a Scortoni son. And yet, he admits to himself here and now that he is not ready to wear a crown. Does not want such a burden. Is he really meant to lead? Could he make those heavy decisions a king must make in the name of his own? Life is short, and Sim is still so young. All he wants to do is be himself, not torn between what he should do and what he could be. Sure he could do anything, and probably should shove all these doubts and desires behind him and rise to the challenge. But deep in his heart, in his soul, he knows. It isn't what he wants.
Inhaling deep the scents of spring and warmth, Sim exhales on a sigh, his expression hooded. What kind of man was he to be?