With a past so dark, that Satan'd jump out of his seat.
But still you out in these streets, thinking you hot as can be.
Without the knowledge to lead, so you just follow the sheep.
Making sure your lame swag is all polished and cleanI'm here at your doorstep. Can you hear me? My breath is slow and deep, yet raspy and my fingernails, cracked and yellow are clawing at your door. The Devil has sent me here. It's time for me to collect what's mine.
I can hear you breathing. You're on the other side of this door, your face pressed against the frame. Your heart is racing, skipping beats.
BaduhBaduhduhBahduh. If it were any louder I'd be able to record it and take it with me. I'd crawl into my cave, sit in the yellow brown recliner stained by sweat and lean back. After a few moments of peace and quiet, I'd hit the play button that recorder and listen to the beat of your heart as it echoed throughout the surrounding silence.
BaduhBaduhduhBahduh. But alas, not all my wishes could come true and with a quick motion my mouth slides open, a simple oval of black and gray as an otherworldly screech escapes my throat, piercing the even's silence with an eerie dread. My nails begin to scratch harder. Slowly digging into the rough oak as the begin to peel the wood away in strips. I can smell it. The oak. It wafts towards my face and then reaches my nostrils with a sort of delicacy.
Let me in. Oh pretty please. Let me in.
I am laughing now. It is a sort of high pitched cackle as I continue to shred the front of the large door. It is then you begin to pray for absolution of your sins. That is when I can see them just perfectly. Four naked bodies of red haired women laying in a shallow grave, uncovered and posed in different forms of dance. Their skin is a ghostly white against the dampened brown earth and their throats a ruby red revealing the clean cuts that exposed their esophagus'. Though this was all appetizing to the eye it is their faces that catch my attention most. Their faces fuel me more, push me to dig into the wood even harder.
Their eyes. Their eyes are open wide, a milky white has replaced their elegant blues. While their mouths are twisted permanently in the shape of a horrified scream. Maggots are crawling through their lips, pouring out of the openings of their throats and I can hear their crawling and sense their feasting.
And oh my, what is this? I can see it now. Your trademark. Your taunting is truly amusing. You have painted their lips with your own blood as some grotesque form of lipstick. It is a truly cocky move. The move of someone who believes they are invincible. And oh, how I like it so very much.
Oh my, my, my!
You have been
quite the
naughty boy!
It is then I pull my hands back, giving you just a fleeting second of hope before slamming the palms of my hands against the door with ungodly force. The door frame splinters and cracks, shards of wood flying past my face as a large boom echoes through the darkness. With it the door flies forward, dragging you with it and much to my absolute pleasure, your shrill scream full of pain with the sounds of cracking bone soon follows.
It is now that I stand here in your doorway eye sockets empty, yet black as night as I stare down at the thick oak door that has you pinned against the foyer wall. My mouth is twisted into some sort of sickening grin, gray lips cracked and bleeding as I slowly reach up with a tin, bony hand to brush the splinters off my shoulder with two quick swipes and then carefully move to to straighten my jacket.
"Tsk, Tsk," the sound escapes my lips as I step over the door frame with heavy military boots, a soft thud following my steps and echoing throughout the small delipatated house. For some reason you seem to think this is worth your style. How
wrong you are.
"Oh silly me, Tannor! What a mess I've made!" I giggle a sort of high pitched giggle. I am oh so funny. To myself, anyway.
I can hear your breath. Raspy, uneven, faltering. Quickly I straighten my gloves with a easy pull at the ends, before making my way to the door, and of course you.
"Why don't we clean things up a bit?" Moving faster than you or any human can see, I am on my knees, hands reaching for and then grasping the edge of the door. With one quick pull I remove it from you, allowing it to fall on the open floor.
It is then I catch sight of you and in response I am laughing, my tone full of maniacal joy as I reach down and grip at my knees.
"My god if you could only see yourself!" It is almost perfect. The way you lay there as though you are some sort of rag doll. Your legs are splayed open. Your arms are bent and cracked at odd angles as your broken fingers of rough tattooed hands clutch at your flannel. Your eyes are open wide in fright perfectly showing the whites as your lower jaw hangs slack while you struggle to get a breath.
It is almost too wonderful a sight. The way the human form is so fragile. I can't resist the urge to smell you and soon I am crawling over you, arms and legs placed on either side of you as I leand down and drag my the side of my face against your chest and up along your neck, sniffing long and quiet, ending at your face with a silent sigh.
I can
smell you.
You smell like
death.
I want to
taste you. My head tilts so fast it looks as though I'm glitching and for a moment the smallest peaks at the ring of a thick smooth scar around the center of my neck reveals itself before going back into hiding as I tilt my head the other way. It's as though I'm inspecting you. Looking for imperfections and while I do so I can hear your breath quicken.
"Are you ready, Tannor?" With a swift movement, I drag my nails into your chest, shredding the fabric of your shirt and your skin into fine ribbons. The ways in which your pained screams suddenly pierce through the night make my own heart race with adrenaline.
You're screaming then. You're pleading then.
"Did they hurt like this, you think?" My voice is calm enough to be mistaken for someone talking to a five year old whose frightened by the all too real monster under the bed.
"Did the scream too, Tannor? Like you do now?" As the words slip from my blackened mouth I suddenly dig my cracked nails into your chest. My fingers quickly follow, cracking your sternum and with one smooth motion I'm ripping open your chest revealing all that's inside. Your screams are magnificent, almost artistic then. Enough to deafen a normal human being and as you begin to pass out, I will you to stay awake with my mind.
I want you to see this.
I want you to see me.
I want you to know who I am.
Slowly I move my hands, slipping them under your heart. I cup the organ gently, my thumbs caressing the slimy yet rough sides before suddenly yanking and holding it above you as it beats. Looking down at you I grin, blood spilling from the cracks of my lips and down my chin, dripping into your open chest before whispering as you fade.
"Time to come home son."I don't like this. It's dark, it's wet. And it's most certainly uncomfortable. I'm no longer safe and warm in the snug fit of my mother's womb. I am on soft dirt and patchy grass under a damn pine tree and I'm pretty sure there's a fucking pine needle or two poking into my ass. It takes only minutes but the spotted stallion cleans me himself and is soon nudging me to stand.
I simply oblige in order to get him to stop nudging me. I want nothing to do with this world. Nothing to do with this life. Wait. Hold on. Why is a stallion trying to get me to stand? Slowly I look down and with an arch of the brow I realize what I have become. Where a life once ruined had led me. I was now
a freaking horse.
Well shit. Slowly I look up at him. I can hear his breathing, and for some reason this calms me before the length of his neck slowly draws my eye and I can't help but stare.
I want you to see this. I want you to see me. I want you to know me.I want to dig my teeth into his flesh, tear away his pharynx through the the thick layers of muscle and skin. Yet I am too small, too weak. I am not ready. Slowly I stretch out my legs, hooves digging into the soft dirt as I lift myself into a standing position and with great effort I will myself to stay upright.
This must be hell. I did what I did, and now God is punishing me. Slowly I take a step forward, legs wobbling as I look up at the Jaguar spotted stallion. He turns and begins to walk and I follow. We say nothing. We don't need to. We somehow both know that now is not a time to talk.
It is soon we find ourselves sneaking through the underbrush of the forest after catching sight of a purple stallion and a young filly.
"Kirin," the jaguar spotted stallion's voice is deep, enough to make me take a step back. Horses can
talk now?
"I need you to change him now. It's urgent." Change him? Change who? Change me? Change me how? Oh I better not be changed into some frog or something, I mean this has already been one hell of day. I mean look at me. I'm a freaking pony. With wings. I'm literally a my little pony. Slowly the stallion looks back towards me and he gestures for me to approach and I do, slowly, legs wobbling slightly until finally I am standing in front of the pair with an unsure gaze, occasionally glancing back towards Demian. My father.
And now I wait. Wait for whatever change is coming. Just please. God. Don't make me into a freaking frog.
tannor.