10-03-2026, 06:05 PM
(This post was last modified: 10-04-2026, 04:29 PM by gail.
Edit Reason: bad at writing :(
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you'll bury me again, you'll say it's all pretend;
Once, she was a woman damned to eternity.
She had gone there under the guise of dying with Carnage. For she had still believed – still hoped - that he was capable of such a feat.
How long she had denied his godhood!
It had been a beach there, too, where it all happened. A different beach, sure, but the sound of the waves had been the same, the ocean’s endless chorus. They had spoken of the world’s end and there had been those awful things chewing at the edge of the horizon, the sense of a world collapsing on itself. She was next to him and she had been so goddamn sure that the world was ending, that he had finally chosen her. He had touched her and she had felt that same stupid draw, that indefinable thing that bound her to him, and the noise grew louder as she pressed her lips against his skin, so eager for the world to finally, truly go black.
She gasped in ecstasy, but the noise meant to be breathed against his neck, meant to usher her into nothingness with him, is spat out into empty air instead.
He was gone.
He was gone, and her world had shrunk to that awful beach, because she was frozen in his absence. Condemned to this small strip of hell, an endless loop on the world’s end, the acute agony of his exodus frozen in her chest.
(She was supposed to be immune to his magic, untouchable – she assumed that had changed. She had never thought that his magic might have had a limit, that he could escape, but he could not bring her, too. He could only save her by damning her to live this day repeated again and again and again unless madness would have not only been welcomed, but embraced)
All this to say – she does not frighten when this titan emerges, when it splits the sand with its power. Her dark ears flick as the terrible, keening creatures slither forth.
God, how she would have welcomed these things back at the end of the world!
She steps forward toward the onslaught. One lunges toward her, nipping at her heels like a wretched parody of a sheepdog – except this thing takes a chunk of flesh.
“No need,” she snaps, though truth be told, she doesn’t mind the pain – it is interesting, to feel it again after so long, “I’m going.”
And she is, she moves at a purposeful walk.
She is not quite sure whether it’s her own curiosity or her inclination for obedience that keeps her at this pace. Surely she should not be so eager to go toward such a thing? Surely she should fight?
The creatures do not reply, of course, nor heed – instead, another, larger creature lunges for her, and she skitters sideways as its claws rake her side. The warmth of blood on her sides is thrilling, and an odd smile cracks her face. She moves faster, runs like the prey they must want her to be.
She leaps into the open palm, lets the fingers close around her, and hopes – this damn girl can’t help but hope – that she might finally find some kind of darkness, after all.
Gail
no proofreading we live and die by stream of conciousnessness
edit: misspelled conscientiousness

edit edit: consciousness. fuck.


