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[Vastra]

I never knew daylight could be so violent Things had been… rocky since she has returned to this place, to say the very least. She had shied away from interacting with many of her own kind - as she was still adjusting to the fact that they were her own kind. What could she even say to them? She was a mare that didn’t remember how to act like a horse, a mare who didn’t even know her own name. Not worth a whole lot as a companion. And it was simply easier for her to not fuss with all of that awkwardness. But, of course, she can’t avoid them forever. They’re everywhere, scattered across the whole continent. She hasn't quite gotten used to the fact that she is one of them, that they don't really look all that strange and she shouldn't stare because she looks that way too. It's been a tricky balance of wanting to avoid them and hoping that some day she'll stumble across someone that says just the right thing and her memories will keep flooding back. She shies away from the meadow, feeling too exposed there, and instead wanders in the forest - hoping that here, with the sunlight filtering through the trees, she’ll be able to jog her memory. Even just her own name would be a start. A connection. She must have family here, must have someone that knows - if not who she is - then who her parents were. Her wings are folded and hugged tightly against her body as she wanders in a haze, dark blue eyes unfocused but, at the same time, undeniably angry. It’s frustrating beyond anything she has ever known to be in a half-existence like this. She doesn't know how to handle this frustration or this anger - but what's one more thing not to know when her entire existence can be summed up in those three awful words. "I don't know." VASTRA kastiel x nazaire, wanderer

@[jenger] hope you don't mind me using Vastra!! Feel free to reply to whoever you feel like it <33