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lost among the wolves; velis - Graveside - 08-06-2016 The bats have left the bell tower The victims have been bled My failure does not shock me. I had tried once again to reach out to another. My voice was all but stolen, I can only speak in hushed whispers and stolen glances. The inky darkness that consumed my coat intimidates despite my delicate frame. I blame my eyes. The silver-gray that blends them, mercury and rain clouds across the moon. I try to keep them hidden beneath my long lashes. I care not to share what I can see with the world. All the ghosts, former shells of horses, they all come to me. They caress my skin, whispers with cracked lips and flesh-less throats into my velvet ears. Their decayed breath fills my nostrils and taints my lungs. But still I try. I can see them all the time but most linger in congested areas. They talk to me, some cry, some are jealous of my life. I use to talk to them...to try to help them and relieve their hurt but I failed at that too. I find myself in the meadow, alone and winked out by the long stretch of skinny shadows. The sun was fat and heavy in the west, drunk on it's fill from the day of blue sky and clouds. My pewter eyes blink away the sleep before I slip into a silver mist to melt into the evening dew and fog of spring. I can take may forms -mist, shadows, a vision of death rot and decay- but I opt for less of the frightening. And so now, I drift over flora and fauna alike. I slip through mane, slink along cheeks, chilling the skin of all. The ghosts are solid when I am on their plateau. They can touch me, hurt me, consume me but I am stronger and I frighten them away with one sharp look. It's the demons that do not spook. When I am safely nestled against a thick clump of trees, I am equine again. My limbs form first and slowly the silver mist gathers to my body, shaping my thin legs to my barrel, my hair and finally my head. Lids fall over the shine of my eyes, blinking away the blurriness that sometimes accompanies my shifting. Not far from me is a figure...tall, intimidating, but he is all too familiar to me though we have never met. He smells of the beach, of my birthplace but I do not move but instead allow him to come to me. Was he death walking? Was he the sin keeper? I dare not ask. The slick black of my coat remains still as a winter pond, like fire forged obsidian stretched over bones and muscle. Breath in. Breath out. Death has come for me. graveside @[velis] RE: lost among the wolves; velis - velis - 08-07-2016 ![]() The course of my aimless marching kept me within the Meadow; somehow I never crossed a single border. Each step sounded – endorsed by the heavy weight of death that collected within the giant spaces of my body. My wander was odd to others with my form. They collected and organized into the convenient sections of this world. I was only at ease here; the darkest black spaces. V E | I S My life is full of longing, but for what I'll never know. I've been drawn into the fire as I reap what I sow.. RE: lost among the wolves; velis - Graveside - 08-07-2016 The bats have left the bell tower The victims have been bled How much time has passed? I can not look away from the large mass of equine. He is tall, oh so tall. I can hear the whistle of his breath, almost strangled in his throat. And still I stand and watch. I can feel my own hart beat become shallow and narrowed as my own breath follows suit. It is the moon's loving glow that exposes me, bathing me in the silver shroud of her caress. All at once I am frozen by his gaze. What had I been doing? Where had I gone when those dark eyes fell upon he? His eyes, his face, his form blots out the death walkers that trail around he and I. The lost souls of rot and of the unfinished that lurk along the edges of my eyes and the tender part of my throat. They seem to fear this man. Headless bodies, jaw-less faces, throat-less necks. They all move to make way from this beast and for that I am grateful. Hardly a moment passes and he closes the space between us in a matter of a few paces. I feel myself suck in air as though he were to steal it away but I do not move. He is so much larger than my lithe form. I am dwarfed by his chest, his head but I do not fear this man...no, instead I answer- "No, never again." I feel my jaw move on it's own, the words coming forward with breathy anguish as I can not (do not) want to leave his gaze. The mercury of my own pools peering upward to the reflection of my own face beneath the tangle of black hair. I do not know what I have agreed to but what I do know is that he drove them away. I can see the malice twisting the death masks demonically. They hate that I have been protected. I no longer belong to them and their world. This man, this walking death drove them off. They shriek and quake before him. I will be whatever he wants if only to stay by his side, to remain protected from the ugly whispers of their swollen mouths with rotten teeth. Tentatively...I raise my head towards him, trembling against the silk of the night air. graveside RE: lost among the wolves; velis - velis - 08-08-2016 ![]() This moment deferred time in a way like never before; I was falling under her delicate black spell that I knew could easily slip from my adoration. It was as if I existed for the sole purpose to stand here; in this second that paused so sweetly for us. V E | I S My life is full of longing, but for what I'll never know. I've been drawn into the fire as I reap what I sow.. RE: lost among the wolves; velis - Graveside - 08-09-2016 The bats have left the bell tower The victims have been bled I can feel his eyes consuming me but...but I think I like it. What feeling does one feel that they like? (pleasure) I feel pleasure under his gaze. It confuses me, causes my mind to balk. I have only ever know fear and disappointment. I have only know pain and ugliness. But under this frightening, massive, dying, beautiful stallion I can feel something awaken in my soul. Like cracking an ugly stone that reveals to be a beautifully intricate geode, so is my soul. I am bare and those eyes see right through me. Naked. I can only peer from the thin veil of my forelock, upward to watch the dark lips of the man part slowly. I find myself craning to listen, watching closely as the moonlight expires only briefly by a slew of heavy gray clouds. In this time, shrouded in the darkest night yet, I hear him speak. Despite the darkness, I can still see his eyes. They are all I can see. The spirits of horses long dead simply teeter on the edge of my view. They are too scared to come too closely. I have never dreamed this dream. The words echo in my mind but in all actually I have never either. I had determined my life was only in existence to be tortured by the dead but now...now I am not so sure. Velis, though I do not know this, nears closer to me soundlessly. The scent of death that betrays him is no longer noticed by my senses. I want him closer. I want to touch him. I want to know why they fear him so. But as I watch the thick neck crest and crane to me, I catch my breath in anticipation but he stops. Something stops him and instead of his caress, I am stroked by the deep rumble of syllables. He wants to know why and I do not know. I am not sure any answer I give would suffice so instead I chose to not answer. In place of my voice is my own touch. My lips move to gentle stroke his cheek, the texture like nothing I have ever known. My pewter eyes close in response as though I read his skin like braille. His scent is so much more than death and decay. The sourness that once stuns gives way to that of fertile soil, the wetness of freshly rained upon rocks. I feel intoxicated. I move to pull back away from him. I am ready. "Because you finally found me when I found you." graveside RE: lost among the wolves; velis - velis - 08-10-2016 ![]() I was lost to her; almost regretting my reservations as her pretty black cells collapsed so perfectly under her dim awn of time. Her spell detached my senses in this instance; surely convinced her shade would never abandon me; ever again. As if I shared this darling dream alone, the nocturnal creatures that infested - suspiciously parted. This was prophecy that break of day would soon take place; yet my proverbial tread did not commence. I alone had her; all to myself. It was like a candied secret we shared. Time was a stranger with her around. Lost like me. V E | I S If you see a light at the end – it’s just the sun in your eyes. RE: lost among the wolves; velis - Graveside - 08-14-2016 The bats have left the bell tower The victims have been bled He touches me but I welcome it. I feel wanted, desired. Never had I ever experienced this before nor had I ever acted as so. Though others would be repulsed, I value this man. I bask in the ribbons for his longing gaze, the brush of his gnarled hide. I am silk and he is burlap. I melt against him and dare not leave (no do I wish to) leave him. He moves around me and my pewter eyes only watch him, the ripple of muscle under tatter skin, a darkness seeping around the stitching like an child's fiercely loved doll. When he speaks, I find myself grounded once again. The vibrations that surge my ears, dancing along my nerves and spine. I can feel him play along my ribs, stroking my hips. He curls around me like a thick black mist to whispers against my skin. I do not know how to answer his question but I want to know. I want to know everything. "Tell me. I want to hear your words...your voice." I feel myself whispering while coiled tightly to him, close and secret. I only move to break away from him to sanctuary in the thicket and overgrowth of ferns and brambles. The sunrise temporarily blinds the silver depths of my vision and I am unsure I could bear not seeing him even only for a few moments. And so I beckon him to follow with my face over my shoulder before moving my frame deeper into the embrace of the still sleeping forest. graveside RE: lost among the wolves; velis - velis - 08-21-2016 ![]() I looked into her darkness, it seemed magically relentless to the upcoming streams of bitter luminescence. It would appear I was lost to her in awe, but her every word dripped so finely into my ears. Each drop adhering to my memory as they were all I had from the years of being her advocate. She had never spoken to me before, and this is all I had ever wanted. Her to tell me she wanted me too. That she was here for me. V E | I S If you see a light at the end – it’s just the sun in your eyes. RE: lost among the wolves; velis - Graveside - 08-21-2016 The bats have left the bell tower The victims have been bled I can feel his eyes plucking the strings of my movements yet he does not move. It is not until I grab his eyes, caressing them and silently calling for their attention, does he animate from his stance. Plodding of heavy weight, thick trunks for legs but razor sharp nails meeting the damp soil of autumn in haste. I fit against him like it was always meant to be. Nothing could pull me away from the way I fit the pocket of his ribs to his hip, my own shoulder and hind end pressed against his underlying warmth, comforting my every need. He then begins when he has me captured, -no- coiled, around him. I eagerly give him my attention, my ears, my eyes. I listen to his voice, a low lullaby, as he describes me. I am helpless (though I do not want nor desire it) beside him. Like an addict, I crave the sound of his gravely voice, the vibrations of his body against mine as he speaks. Where once my heart fluttered like a caged bird for fear of the massive stallion, it is now bursting with what I can only imagine is love, the need to care and nurture this man. His lips on my skin make me press against him further. I want to crawl inside him and live forever surrounded by him. I could live without food, water, or sleep. I could not live without him. He presses back against me with the thickness of his skull, large enough to crush my own, but he is tender, careful. I can not hold back (nor would I ever try) and I meet his gaze with my own mercury colored eyes. I search them as he speaks, my own breath is catching in my throat as I anticipate what he may say but when he asks me to name what I want...I do not miss a beat- "You. I want you." I whisper the words close to him, they were only for him, they would only ever be for him. I am his and he is mine. graveside RE: lost among the wolves; velis - velis - 08-22-2016 ![]() She has those pretty eyes, dipped in the rawness of the pure black. I fed off of them with my own gaze, I felt myself supporting her as her weight was all over me - just like her wicked words. I never imagined her to be so fragile and exposed, my lips felt her; each bristle like that of fine feather. Fine black feathers. My night. My beautiful little black bird. V E | I S If you see a light at the end – it’s just the sun in your eyes. |



