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Dipping my toes in the water; Heartfire - Ilma - 09-17-2019 Ilma One night I will be the moon hanging over you One night I will be a star follow where you are We will always be on opposite sides, he said. That was his excuse not to warn her, to keep going even though he knew he’d destroy her in the process. So set in the thought that she was against him, he hadn’t even bothered to ask. She’d denied it at the time, claimed there were no two sides, for she would have stayed in her grey area perfectly had he not pulled the world from under her feet. But he kept telling her that if she had tried to change anything at all in the path he’d chosen, she would have been against him. Truth is, he underestimated her. Still did after they talked. What if she really was against him? During that same conversation, she found that whatever she had thought he could offer her - a different voice that reasonably explained to her why this or that violent action was a necessary evil - he could not. Because he refused to be reasonable with her, in a way. He refused to explain anything at all because in his mind, bending just a tiny bit was giving in, showing the world his weak side. Wrong. We’re both ambitious. They’d talked about Litotes back then, but she had known that between the lines he meant her, as well. Wrong, so wrong. The only ambition she had was to collaborate and he’d refused. But she knew more leaders than just him. The meadow was the peaceful home she wanted and needed, this was true. But that could not keep her from learning facts, from making decisions, from helping others find their way. He’d mentioned it so casually. Wolfbane has taken Taiga for Loess. That was something she already knew, but she also already knew it wasn’t really Wolfbane, nor was it probably (she could not entirely exclude the possibility) Castile’s idea to begin with. What they’d done, the three of them - peacefully or forcefully didn’t matter - was an invasion. Ilma had explained to Lepis long ago that even if an act didn’t involve violence, it was still an act of war. Back then it had only been a steal - a diplomat’s warfare. This was no different. This was Lepis’ act of war. She could not entirely blame Castile for wanting to retaliate when Leliana in her magical-power-surge had attacked first. She could not blame him for banishing Sinner and Mary either. But invading, and conquering, of a land that had been neutral towards the invaders so far: that’s where Ilma personally drew a line. The fact that he didn’t, perhaps indeed placed them on opposite sides. In the end, she comes because she knows that she will. At some point, she will have convinced herself that she wants to interfere in some way - even if she has been stripped of her home and her title. At some point, she finds out that the collaboration she always sought cannot be found in the friend who dropped her like a baby giraffe because it didn’t suit him at the time that she might have a voice. At some point, she will realize that her would-be friend betrayed her, and can no longer be trusted. Certainly not with ruling half the world or conquering all of it. And so she comes to aid the kingdom where her daughter grew up, in what little way she can. Perhaps she can only confirm what is already known, however, she refuses to sit still when the world threatens to burn in its entirety. She comes by air, over the seas, far away from sight from the Taigan shore, and lands in the north-east - Ilma notes the stark contrast that her white body and sunlight wings make against the dark grey rocks and sands, and knows she will be found easily. She calls softly. After all, a loud voice is not needed, when one knows beforehand where the Nerinian queen will be at a certain point in time. Hurry, the sun is waking Darling, don't leave me waiting @[Heartfire] RE: Dipping my toes in the water; Heartfire - Heartfire - 09-18-2019 She's got the devil's eyes She had tried to warn Castile once. Had told him anything that might affect her kingdom would always be a concern of hers. He had chosen not to heed that warning, however. Either that, or he genuinely believed her weak. Either way, he had made is lack of regard resoundingly clear. and they'll cut you like a weapon Heartfire RE: Dipping my toes in the water; Heartfire - Ilma - 10-21-2019 Ilma One night I will be the moon hanging over you One night I will be a star follow where you are There is little she can do at this point, she thinks. But not moving, just waiting until the idiocy that came with power, passed - it occurred to her that it might be a family trait - that wasn’t helping anyone. There was a lull now, a silence before the storm. Heartfire was the embodiment of such silence, Ilma decided, and right now that was a good thing. It was what she needed, if she was still allowed to need things and to mean anything, in the world of today instead of only the world of yesterday. The sabino roan is quick to greet her, by name - a simple thing that the white mare has come to appreciate. They might not be well acquainted, what with only a one-time diplomatic meeting, but they both know enough of each other to know that this collaboration that Ilma came for, if more or less a formality only. The sun-winged mare smiles at the queen who greets her. ”I’ve had to process a bunch of thoughts - including future decisions, - so I’m afraid I came a little late to the scene. I realised things kept changing every time you spoke to someone.” she offers by means of both explanation and apology. ”I believe you’re all set to move, if I’m not mistaken - but if you’ll have me, I could speak to those you may not yet have reached.” There are places, lands, that had been unaccounted for. Lands deemed insignificant enough, lands everybody thought or hoped would not mingle with whatever happened. Or, perhaps, Lepis had sought them out already. It would be good for those parties to know what might lie below the surface of certain alliance offers. Of what could be in the future for who those who thought merely to be friendly and peaceful. Hurry, the sun is waking Darling, don't leave me waiting @[Heartfire] RE: Dipping my toes in the water; Heartfire - Heartfire - 10-22-2019 She's got the devil's eyes She had never been a woman to sow discord without a very compelling reason. And now, she had been given that reason in spades. Unluckily for those who might oppose her, her time had not been spent in idle silence. There are many who no doubt believed it had been such, but they would be sorely mistaken. and they'll cut you like a weapon Heartfire RE: Dipping my toes in the water; Heartfire - Ilma - 10-23-2019 Ilma One night I will be the moon hanging over you One night I will be a star follow where you are There’s subtle things about Heartfire’s demeanor that are just fine with Ilma - acknowledgements, a nod, an appropriate response to what someone else is feeling. There’s no-one saying that Heartfire is a very sensitive woman, but neither should anyone think her heartless. No - heartless is what Castile had portrayed so many times. He’d once claimed she had been among those who he could trust, but he had never truly acted upon it. Never trusted her with any information, never with his true feelings. She’d tried several times to reach beneath the surface, but beneath the surface was where he’d stored many other things than just his longing for peace - if, truly, that was what he wanted anyway. By now, Ilma had come to realize she’d have to dig through a shitload of dreg, pardon her speech, and she was done getting her hands dirty for someone who wouldn’t move a muscle to help her clean up. Heartfire’s confirmation is not strictly necessary, but the politeness and extended trust it implies for easily admitting it, is something Ilma can appreciate. The subtle art of diplomacy may be a little rusty for her, the white woman thinks at times, but she can still understand and relearn. She smiles a little at the joke, then nods at the sabino roan’s implications. That Ilma can’t give back in to her kindness. Well, she’s been broken and now is angry enough, not to believe anything Castile says any more. ”I believe we will.” Frankly, the Nerinians had been her allies for as long as she could remember, even if she had thought that she herself might not fit among them at the time. ”He claims to want peace, but in his mind peace and conquering go hand in hand. There’s only peace when he rules everything - but he doesn’t see that it won’t stop there.” She shakes her head. The conclusion had been painful to draw, but it had been clear enough for her not to reject the theory. In fact, Castile had only confirmed it last time they spoke, and his actions spoke even louder than that. The Andalusian mare’s head turns a little to the south-west, thinking it over. It wasn’t just Castile who was like that. Litotes was much the same, though he, more or less, could still be reasoned with. And Vul… she remembers when he had been so desperate for a friend, and so torn between his snake-like abilities and his horse-self in not wanting to eat her. She remembers him bringing Adna to Hyline, to learn of diplomacy - which had lead to the conclusion that he was worse at it than his daughter, at the time. He was a warmonger too, Ilma knows. ”It’s a pity that the warmongers make up more than half of the current kingdom rulers.” she concludes softly, then frowns. Heartfire would have to be enough. For as much as the woman was unique, she was not to be categorized in either diplomat or warrior. She never had been. Returning her gaze to Heartfire, the sunlight-winged mare gives her ally a slight nod. ”Then I’ll head to the islands and peninsulas first.” she thinks. There is, after all, no talking to Lepis or Starsin, as they both know. ”Is there anything you want to offer them that I should be aware of?” If not, then still Ilma could talk to them about the extent of Lepis’ and Loess’ friendship - if they haven’t found out the hard way already. Hurry, the sun is waking Darling, don't leave me waiting @[Heartfire] RE: Dipping my toes in the water; Heartfire - Heartfire - 11-01-2019 She's got the devil's eyes Though it had never been her intention to find the fine line between diplomacy and war, somehow she had at a very young age. Since then, she had walked that line as though it were a broadway and not a tightrope. Of course, her abilities had lent her a fair amount of stability when it came down to it, but eventually it had grown even narrower. and they'll cut you like a weapon Heartfire |