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I lock myself inside these walls, cause out there I'm always wrong. [Scorch//Any] - Breckin - 03-12-2018 These lands are so different from what I am used to. Or maybe I have just never paid attention? The people are colorful, vibrant even. It almost hurts my eyes to look at them. No matter how prepared I feel like I am, each passing one has something new and interesting for my inquisitive eyes to drink up. As I pass them, my head is held higher than it was when I first stumbled into this Beqanna and I stare…and make no attempt to hide it. Some match my even gaze, others cast theirs elsewhere, probably in an attempt to remain polite. But perhaps politeness is lost on me, for my gaze remains locked on each one until I am contented that I have studied them enough. Luckily for me, the journey to this Nerine is long from the field where I had met Scorch. I have followed her every direction and it has led me through the most interesting of places. Through forests of looming giants, across rapid waters, and past the lowest valley. Every step that takes me closer to this home of…how did she put it. Camraderie. I have never known others well enough to share in any type of companionship. The prospect that I may have the opportunity to be a part of something larger makes my heart rate pick up and the reverberating thud in my chest proves emphasizes my thought.. If that purpose is to be served in Nerine, well I guess I will have to find out. To be honest, my expectations are high for this land that I am about to come upon. Hopefully it will not be a disappointment. By the time my treds fall onto the grey toned sands, the sun has begun its descent behind the horizon. I am holding my head even higher now; ears swiveling every which way to capture the sounds of the terra. Whether it’s the salty wind that gently brushes my side, or the anxious anticipation of speaking with someone else, I am not sure. A quick scan of the beach around me and I am contented to realize that for the moment that no one is in the immediate vicinity. Slowly I allow the coiled tension in my muscles to relax; gravity minutely pulling my craned neck lower to the sand. I suppose the long trek has finally begun to catch up with my tired muscles. I try to make a conscious effort to deeply inhale and exhale, but my eyes come to rest on something particularly interesting. The object is white and round in shape and there appears to be a faint star made of holes along the top. It almost resembles a shell, but I am not convinced that is what it is at all. Another quick glance around me for the presence of others. When none are detected, I take a hesitant step towards it, unsure if the thing is alive. There is no quick response from the thing and it remains still. Bravery is not a characteristic I would describe myself as having. So I am surprised to feel myself take another step, even going so far as to let my whiskered muzzle gently brush against the surface of the strange white disk… RE: I lock myself inside these walls, cause out there I'm always wrong. [Scorch//Any] - Scorch - 03-13-2018 WATCH THE FLAMES CLIMB HIGH INTO THE NIGHT Scorch Once Khaleesi of the Amazon JungleAdvisor to Nerine's Hestia RE: I lock myself inside these walls, cause out there I'm always wrong. [Scorch//Any] - Breckin - 03-14-2018 The white circle shapes make no movement as her darkened nose traces them, scattering sand granules as a long breath is drawn inward and outward. To her, they smell of algae and salt and in a quick moment she easily concludes that if it ever was alive that it is now dead. Ever so slightly her head is drawn higher as she settles into a relaxed stance, enjoying the quiet of the moment by herself. How long the moment lasts she is not sure, for just as soon as her bones began to settle in their joints, she hears a vaguely familiar voice calling to her. Rather closely, the girl watches a figure quickly close the distance between them. She doesn’t get the chance to say it aloud in that moment, but she is relieved when she recognizes the barren form of Scorch approaching. And Breckin didn’t want to admit it to herself, but she was not sure how she would have reacted to someone different intercepting her first. Unfortunately, it would seem the spotted mare had had her fill of new acquaintances for the time being. Scorch dips her head in what appears to be a friendly greeting. Unsure of how to respond, Breckin mimics the greeting, hoping that it is an appropriate response. With encouraging words from the other woman, she finds herself matching the even strides of Scorch as they find a path travelling further into Nerine. Eyes ever alert, she drinks up the sights and sounds specific to this kingdom, filing them away for future reference and enjoying the surprisingly comfortable rhythm they seem to be striking. She expected some conversation to happen, but hadn’t anticipated her own reaction to the other mare’s question. “I…” It was a simple enough question that the other mare has asked not unkindly, but out of curiosity; a sentiment that Breckin should have no problem identifying with. And it is a question that should warrant a simple enough answer in response. But the conversation has taken a sharp turn into a direction that Breckin is unexpectedly uncomfortable with; her movement halts suddenly and ears flatten to her head to mirror her change in emotion. There is no subtlety here as the speckled maiden’s eyes reflect her newfound anxiety. Her gaze is almost pleading as it aligns with Scorch’s; as if the other woman might have some answers for her. “I don’t….I don’t know?,” she finally stammers out, surprised at her own answer and realization. Confused as to why her even mood has spiked so abruptly, she shifts in her stance; Fighting the primordial urge to run from a threat. But logical thinking has her reasoning that it would do no good, to try to run from herself. Perhaps these are thoughts that should be further explored later on, when she is not under the scrutiny of someone that she is beginning to feel a sense of kinship with. A long, steady breath is forcibly dragged in and out as the leopard mare attempts to ground herself again. Her world darkens briefly as her lids are closed; centering herself enough to the point where her quickened heartrate has evened out. Slowly her brown eyes re-open. For the first time since her arrival, a small smile is offered to Scorch; a miniscule attempt to show the mare that she was okay. But now she tries to change the subject in an effort to keep Scorch talking to her. Breckin realizes she likes the hoarse tones of the other woman and finds them somewhat comforting as it becomes more familiar to her. “Please,” she says with slight head movement towards Scorch, “What happened to you?” OOC: I wanted to give her a try in third person. I hope you don't mind. DX I will change it back next time if its not cool with you! RE: I lock myself inside these walls, cause out there I'm always wrong. [Scorch//Any] - Scorch - 03-15-2018 Breckin followed the mare as she lead her through the kingdom with an honest meekness, a willingness to listen and observe that Scorch appreciated - mostly because, at Breckin’s age, she had had nothing of the sort. Impulsive, loud, judgmental, and god forbid she ever be observant. But in her old age things have mellowed out a bit, and perhaps that is what makes the rhythm of their conversation so easy and comfortable. Years of practice at being a friendly person will do that to you - and it helps that Scorch really does see herself that way now, and not as a a mask or anything. But suddenly, at Scorch’s seemingly innocent question, Breckin halts and pins her ears; for a moment the mutilated woman fears that she has angered her new recruit, that she has over stepped her bounds somehow (perhaps, where Breckin came from, such questions were considered impolite). But when the spotted mare raises her pleading eyes to meet Scorch’s sympathetic and concerned ones, she understands that it is fear and confusion that mars Breckin’s expression. Ah, well, they had people like her come too - their minds emptied of memory, left only with a hauntingly chilled feeling where a whole life should have been. Scorch allows Breckin her moment of silence and restabilization, joining in with her purposeful inhalation and exhalation in the hopes that the solidarity would further steady the mare. Scorch did not consider Brecking weak for needing her moment - hell, if you only knew how many moments Scorch had taken between birth and death and life again, there wouldn’t be any role playing, just moments where she’s trying not to flip her shit. But Breckin opens her eyes and tries out a smile, so Scorch deigns to speak, her own smile reassuring and calm. “That’s okay, there’s no expectation for you to remember. We don’t have to talk about it again, I’m sorry that I caused you distress.” Her bare nose reached out to briefly press against her new friend’s shoulder, encouraging her to continue moving to the center of the kingdom, to a new life with new memories to be had. Well, unfortunately for Scorch, her life was full of memories - and right then as she begins to walk, Breckin asks her to recount some of them. Snorting a little at the question - not offended, just surprised (she hadn’t been asked this in... decades) - the sound quickly turned into chuckle, and she resettled her hooves, giving up on the whole making any progress through the kingdom thing. With any luck, Breckin was here for good, and so would have loads of time to explore on her own or with the other Nerinians. But now, to her question! “Well, since you asked, I’ll give you the full tale - but be warned, it’s a lengthy one.” Her smile split into a grin as her weight sank into a hip, eyes turning to peruse the sea as she recalled the nightmare that christened her as Scorch more permanently than any birth given name ever could. “Once, long ago when Beqanna was a far, far different place, I found myself traveling between kingdoms and in need of a rest. So, I laid down - but the faeries had other plans.” She fumbled in her speech for a sec, eyes refocusing to glance apologetically to Breckin. “I should explain. Faeries are the servants of the land - Beqanna is alive with magic, but when she speaks it is almost always in anger. The faeries are mostly good, but some are harbingers of chaos and darkness - this was one of those. Loki was his name. He brought me into a nightmare where I dreamt horrid things - my mother and birthhome being burned alive, being trapped and having to run through fire, and last of all, fighting a dragon. All was well in the dream because I felt no pain while I was alight with flames, I thought I was invincible. But when I defeated the dragon, I awoke, literally in flames.” She frowned, shuddering at the memory of her fur burning and her skin melting, dirtying the clean night air. “The only reason I’m still alive is because there was a lake nearby that I dove into. It was... beyond painful. Being scarring. But I gained these eyes because of it - dragon eyes, with which I can see many more things than others.” Those eyes glimmered their usual red, and then suddenly flashed to every imaginable colour until they settled back on red. Scorch’s expression softened then, and she cast her gaze aside. “Even more than that, the dream caused me to flee, and because of that, I met my husband, Hestoni. He’s not with us any more, but he and I raised ten children together. We ruled my birthhome together, and... I wouldn’t be who I am if that hadn’t happened to me.” She chuckled again. “I had another dream like that, and got the ability you saw in the field. Beqanna is strange that way, giving and taking simultaneously. But funnily enough, I was born completely without magic.” She took a deep breath and exhaled, scanning the horizon before finding Breckin’s pretty face. She smiled again, a little sheepishly. “I’m sorry Breckin, I’ve talked your ear off. But I hope that I’ve perhaps opened your eyes to the possibilities of Beqanna. And please, if you have any other questions, ask!” RE: I lock myself inside these walls, cause out there I'm always wrong. [Scorch//Any] - Breckin - 03-18-2018 The more Scorch talks to her, the more she feels herself decompress. When the bald mare finally reaches out to touch her gently on the shoulder, she is surprised at how soothing the action was and the rest of her anxiety seems to subside. With a little encouragement from Scorch, they are walking again, into what she can only assume is further into the territory of Nerine. Ever so briefly, Breckin allows herself to address the lingering confusion flittering at the back of her mind. Why had such a simple question elicited such a negative reaction? What happened to her? But her lapse in thought is drawn back to her companion as they stop once more, this time in response to Breckins inquiry of how Scorch’s appearance came to be. Shifting her speckled frame, she angles herself so that her eyes can align with the ember eyes of the other woman, settling into a comfortable stand and giving her her full attention. As Scorch finishes the recollection of her past, Breckin is left with mixed feelings of satisfaction, sadness, and awe. Her deep rooted quest for knowledge of Beqanna is momentarily satisfied as Scorch has answered her questions of the fae and the magics of the land. But her satisfaction is marred by the sadness she feels for Scorch’s trial and pain. And yet she is awestruck by the woman’s sheer resilience and positivity of the circumstances she has endured in her lifetime thus far. At last she finds her voice, ”You have no reason to apologize. You’ve answered more questions than you know." The spotted girl takes a step closer to Scorch, her face edged with one of remorse, "I am sorry to hear that you had to go through so much to become who you are today. I can’t imagine the pain. Does it still hurt now?" For a fleeting moment Breckin had thought of returning the friendly gesture Scorch had shown her earlier, but she quickly cast the idea aside unsure of whether or not it would be uncomfortable for her. Instead, she decides to take Scorch up on her last statement and offers another question, ”Does that mean that I could acquire…abilities too?” RE: I lock myself inside these walls, cause out there I'm always wrong. [Scorch//Any] - Scorch - 03-20-2018 WATCH THE FLAMES CLIMB HIGH INTO THE NIGHT Scorch Once Khaleesi of the Amazon JungleAdvisor to Nerine's Hestia Catch me breaking the fourth wall sort of lmao. IDK what this post is. Enjoy. RE: I lock myself inside these walls, cause out there I'm always wrong. [Scorch//Any] - Breckin - 03-27-2018 Scorch gracefully closes the gap between her form and Breckin’s awkwardly outstretched muzzle. Conflicted thoughts had prohibited the extension of her nose to the other woman’s bare skin any further, but had yet to recede it back towards the core of her own frame. The mere fact that she had considered to initiate the contact had brought on a slight glimmer of pride, even despite the fact she could not bring herself to finalize the small gesture. And for that she was thankful to Scorch; her gratitude evident with the diminutive smile addressed towards her. A smile that would grow a little wider to learn that the physical interaction did not seem to cause any discomfort to the spotted girl’s new friend. To be honest, Breckin was beginning to feel the forming of a new bond with Scorch; something not entirely unlike what a daughter would feels towards a mother. Though she is unsure of just exactly who her mother had been, there is no doubt that she had been someone’s daughter at some point in time. And she cannot ultimately say one way or another, but hope is there with the sincerest desire that her own mother had been just as kind and patient of a teacher as the woman standing nearby. A hope that carries over to drifting thoughts as she calmly closes her eyes, content to identify the makings of a memory, albeit they are fuzzy and out of focus. But when her eyes open again she is left with the lingering sense of satisfaction knowing confidently that somewhere hidden behind a glazed veil, there are in fact memories to one day be reclaimed. But for now the decision is made to focus upon the makings of a new memory here with Scorch, where the workings of Beqanna fall upon inquisitive ears. “I am not sure,” she mumbles in response to Scorch’s question, “I can only hope that if the situation arises, I can keep my wits about me. I suppose I will have to wait and see.” Words rang with unbridled truth in them. As remarkable as Beqanna was, this place was still new and fear inspiring to the girl. Thinking of what the fae themselves were capable of may have been hard for her to believe merely a few weeks ago, but a prime example stood before her and it was no longer possible for Breckin to try to deny their might. To think creatures of manifesting such beauty and good could also wrought chaos on just the slightest of whims and provocations. For now she knew she would be destined to keep a low profile until she could grow more. Wearily, she moves to change the subject to something less foreboding—or so she hoped. “Nerine is like a kingdom, I believe a remember you mentioning. I assume someone is governing the people that live here?” Her sentence ends with the inflection of question, curious to find out who ruled the land and what kind of other equines lived here. @[Scorch] RE: I lock myself inside these walls, cause out there I'm always wrong. [Scorch//Any] - Scorch - 03-29-2018 WATCH THE FLAMES CLIMB HIGH INTO THE NIGHT Scorch Once Khaleesi of the Amazon JungleAdvisor to Nerine's Hestia @[Breckin] RE: I lock myself inside these walls, cause out there I'm always wrong. [Scorch//Any] - Breckin - 04-03-2018 A little, pesky sliver of uneasiness still dwells in her mind as the conversation moves on. The speak of the fae of Beqanna leaves Breckin feeling rather unsettled, but at least the feeling is starting to diminish. And it dwindles closer to nothingness as Scorch is eager to offer an answer to the leopard mare’s latest question. Although it is not quite the answer she was expecting. In response, her gaze narrows in contemplation while her ears swivel to a more alert position. To be frank, she was half-expecting for the bare woman to tell her that she herself was the current ruler of Nerine. But this is not the first time that Breckin has been wrong. It is just that the way the mare beside her seemed to exude pride and diplomacy for her home that would have led her to believe that she was the Queen. Only a moment later does Scorch relinquish the information that she is the Queen’s second, and this information makes perfect sense to Breckin now. The spotted mare is also quick to make a mental note of Queen Hestia’s description, should she ever have the need to seek her out someday. “Have you ever been a ruler?” , she hears herself ask Scorch yet another question. Hopefully she wasn’t beginning to regret offering Breckin the chance to ask her any questions she may have. An inquiry sent Breckin’s way has her head tilting sideways in quiet contemplation. Truly this was nothing she has ever been asked to consider before and so she thinks carefully before she offers a response. Though she knows she has had to defend herself in the recent past, the spotted mare cannot say for certain what type of caste she would be better suited for. However that would not stop her from making an educated guess. “As of now, I would believe I would be best suited for the caste of peace.” She draws her gaze back to meet Scorch’s, having only recently found particular interest in a nearby shrub as she had formulated her response internally. Again, she smiles crookedly at her friend, “But that is simply a guess. Hopefully if I should return to call Nerine home, I can offer something to the kingdom. Be it by growing as an individual or perhaps establishing some ties with other people or kingdoms. Maybe both,” she concludes with an upturn shrug of her shoulder. The woman new the itch to wander was growing larger and that the time to move on to another terra was drawing near so it is then that she turns to Scorch with a new fondness in her brown eyes. “I appreciate your willingness to satiate my thirst for knowledge, Scorch, and to welcome me to you beautiful home. I believe it is time for me to move along though and study the rest of Beqanna. Do you have any suggestions on where to start?” @[Scorch] RE: I lock myself inside these walls, cause out there I'm always wrong. [Scorch//Any] - Scorch - 04-09-2018 WATCH THE FLAMES CLIMB HIGH INTO THE NIGHT Scorch Once Khaleesi of the Amazon Jungle @[Breckin] you seriously make my muse explode this is crazy lol |